Thinking of Van Gogh

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Mon, 05 Dec 2005 02:15:27 GMT

ok ok ok ,,,, so the new tri starts tomorrow, im not sure what classes i have because i love the suprise. the sad truth is im not a very avid livejournal user...sorry,,,

i have to take the garbage out not :(:(:(:(:(:(:(

yeah..

update.

Fri, 21 Oct 2005 01:50:06 GMT

So stefania kept complaining i never up dated so here it is

I LOVE YOU STEFANIA!!!!!!!

seroiusly,
nothing really has happened,

atleast nothing im goi got tell an online journal

thoughts on events

Fri, 23 Sep 2005 00:41:13 GMT

I found this writing,,,,,it just seems to fit.

* * * * *
I wish I could lie with you under the stars and talk to you for hours about nothing, and maybe if I could disassemble myself and show you how the pieces fit together you would take an interest in what makes me tick.

How long could I stay captivated by watching your eyes and hearing your voice? What if you let me open your doors and keep you warm and carry you over rocks? How could I gain deeper insight into who you are?

What would become of me if I said the things I barely dared to think? I wont say anything just yet and perhaps ill deny I ever thought it.

Sometimes I wonder if I'd even be able to keep up with you, if we'd really even work or if the thought of it has ever crossed your mind for even a moment just once.

And if I could share these words with you without fear or regret, would anything I've written make any difference at all?

random randomness

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 22:21:08 GMT

sorry i was so ....pissy, last night, i was having a bad night

well, im pretty sure i didnt do horrible on the ap bio test,
i mean, i know i did bad,
but not horrible.

anyway, i rocked the chemistry word, because i got like a sweet grade on the test. so yeah

i really want to go to homecoming with someone special, so yeah, maybe i can make that happen, im willing to work on that one.............yeah

its like, three weeks away, and i never ment to move that fast.

all my friends are in band right about now, so ihave nothing to really do,

i do not have a lot of homework so i'll try to get alittle bit ahead,

physics sucked, it was easy just really really, redundent,

im getting a piece of sheet metal so i can make a bulletin board-esque thing, so im now accepting magnet donations,

my room is starting to rock, i can wait until we move agian (which we are bound to move again) so i have to tear it all down and start over agian, maybe next time i'll get to paint it a sweet color and maaybe my room will be larger then it is now. id ont know.

im sorry my live journal isnt full of raunchy gossip and stuff, im just not like that and all the really personal stuff is in my hard copy journal,

i have to clean the leaving room now, eventhough im not held accountible for it...thats just how sweet my life is

lets see what sweet music i can fine.................

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ahhh, classic dashboard,

-the martyr is meaningless-
~Rob

Mon, 19 Sep 2005 00:58:47 GMT

i've had such a horrid night so im sorry if im a jerk tomorrow

there is only two people right now that can make this easier for me, and one is in grand rapids

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 18:54:17 GMT

random thoughts for the weekend

Sun, 18 Sep 2005 17:54:29 GMT

This weekend was awesome, i went to the game and we one, so i guess thats cool, i met some new people, one girl named stafania or something, shes cool, but can be slightly annoying, still friends are friends, after the game i went to the dance and hung out there with Meggie B. which was amazing, she has some pretty cool friends, i also hung out with jimmy and had a dance off, i won because i rule at dance :-D just kidding ;)

moshed to queen

jimmy drove me home, i had fun,

saturday i went over to Rick's Dorm and hung out with him and some of his friends, mike and dusty, they are pretty sweet, we wacthed family guy and played warcraft three, it was awesome, me and dust has alot him common we like the same stuff so i got along well with them,

i got home this morning around noonish, played some of the sims where im accually a successful individual, i need to study for AP BIO like made crazy, i pretty much dont have any other homework, tomorrow im going to study for my vocab quiz,,,,,,total thats 90 new words i have to learn this week end,

shoot me, very unliteratly,

I had a wonderful time this weekend but now its time to snap back into reality and get alot of stuff done, so im successful,

homecoming is in less then three weeks, i think i know who im going to ask, i just have to enchant her enough, i wish i could go slow but i have like, two weeks to ask her, hopefully things will work out for the best in the end,

if not, i guess im flying solo :-D

-siempre y por siempre-
Rob

Sun, 11 Sep 2005 23:55:29 GMT

the weekend is over, i did all my homework however i should probably study, im still looking for an awesome girl to go to homecoming with, but im not in any rush, however in like, two weeks im going to be freaking out, so watch out of that...

in church today someone related New orleans to the flood, stateing how there was so much sin in that place and......

i think thats bullshit, and i dont know who people are making God remorsless...

what ever happened to a God that was loving?

when it comes to girlfriends, its quility not quantity.

septermber never seems this cold

Mon, 05 Sep 2005 16:52:02 GMT

Today is the last day of summer.

yesterday i was sad, i felt as those there was so much more i could have done, but today, i finally think im ready, school is about to start, things about to pick up, i guess.....maybe this year will yield new beginnings even though the days are getting shorter. im still looking for a homecoming date...i guess the seach continues.

my classes are bullshit,,,,,by that i mean really hard, i think this year is going to be a stuggle for me...but maybe i think that about every year....maybe someday this will all pay off in the end...

or maybe im a wishful thinker

Wed, 17 Aug 2005 15:05:00 GMT

so i've been playing alot of world of warcraft latly, im going to start jamming with jimmy and brandon, and maybe stephan, so yeah, it should be fun, not like anyone cares...

im going to help with the honduras power point, and then we (brandon,rachel,emily,jessi,and friends) might be going to green lake to hang out and do cool stuff............

i still havent found a job and im a slave in my own house,

i want to get my hair trimmed but my nazi mom wont pay for it, so that sucks

im tired...

so i think im going to leave....

so sense my life suck.,..im going to go

Mon, 08 Aug 2005 04:18:44 GMT

i think im just waiting for someone to save me

as far as my inspiration

words dont come to mind, my journal, its just...blank

however i do have this sweet magnetic poetry poem

"Who said summer love was soft? A delicate ugly heart that dreams tragic romances are dead."

not the best grammer but its magnetic poetry

take it for what it is i guess..

~goodbye

band camp

Mon, 25 Jul 2005 15:10:48 GMT

Today is the first day of band camp and the first day or my rapid loss of a social life, im like a band nerd without the talent. i need to meet someone new, i think, i have a hard time talking to people though, i dont want act like an ass, truth is, my first impressions are a bitch.

the truth is, i've had no impreation latly, no reason to write, no reason to read, no reason to proform, i feel as though summer is passing by and i didnt do anything worth remembering, and if summer is what you make it then maybe i just dont have what it takes.

if you want to hang out please message me or call me, because god knows i need the company.

bon fire

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 16:28:33 GMT

i went to a bon fire lastnight/this morning

it was fun
there were alot of really fun people there like, Janaya,bruce, stephan, Ellyse, Liz, bridget, cam, Cliff, Adam B., someone named stacy and some other guys

it was a blast, i really enjoyed myself,

although there wasnt marshmellows

i played guitar for awhile, met some new people, i had a wounderful time and hope to see some of those people again really soon

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 03:11:14 GMT

Yeah, life is pretty sweet right now,

thats all i have to say,,,

you dont even wanna know

I wish i were distent so i could be closer to you.

Thu, 14 Jul 2005 17:32:50 GMT

soon everyone will be gone to camp or sports camp and im not really into that kind of stuff, so if you want to hang out sometime that would be sweet, because i need new non-band geek friends, i just dont have the talent for that sort of thing...

im going to see charlie and the chocolate factory tomorrow opening day, so if you want to come leave a message, i dont know any details right now other then i want to go... i just need out of this damn hoouse.

on another note i've been talking to shannon alot lately so thats pretty tight, shes a really cool person.......

Joel barish: "my life isnt really that interseting, you should read my journal, i mean, its just blank"

I <3 Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

its funny how someone can make you feel so special but be so far way...

i've learned alot of songs on my guitar latly, seeming how thats all i do anymore
songs like

--The good fight
--wounderwall
--Again i go unnoticed
--This photograph is proof
--Buddy holly

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 17:39:23 GMT

So, im going to hang out with some pretty hot girls today, im pretty pumped, although i woke up at 10 and i almost got grounded after waking up at ten, shoot me in the face! i talked my way out of it,,, thanks to that class called indapented and family livings, that class helps me toy with my parents, thus get a lip ring, aget out of groundings.....im such a tool

yeah, im hanging out with emily and her two cousins and maybe some other people, that pretty cool

its going to be a good week,, as long as i wake up at nine......

im a sell out, this was emilys survey first, but it was fun...so yeah

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 18:29:45 GMT

-Age of first kiss: ok, prolly about 5
-Number of people you've kissed: ...ummm i dont even no where to begian, 10ish,,,,,im not a whore am i ?
-French kissing is: wonderful, if you know whats up
-The worst kind of kiss is: the kind where someone doesnt know what they're doing and you end up swollowing someones ear or with a chipped tooth or something,,,,thats tough
-The best kisser you know:Prolly lauren, but we had alot of practice together....
-The worst kisser you know: theres no such thing as a bad kiss.
-Do you kiss on the first date? If it seems to fit..
-Eyes open or closed? closed, its prettier that way, but sometimes i like to look at t he person everyone once and awhile
-Average number of kisses you get a day: not many...:(
-Ever kissed a friend's boyfriend or girlfriend? ...........no comment :-\
-The last person you kissed: my little brother joshy, on the cheek
-Best place to be kissed:under the stars is always nice
-Body: im a sucker for pretty faces, however i think i have sweet arms
-Have you kissed someone of the same sex? once.....along time ago
-What about the opposite sex? HECK YES! what do you think?
-Do you consider kissing cheating? Depends on the situation, 9 out of ten, yes
-The longest you've gone without a kiss: 2 seconds....just kidding, i dont really care enough to keep track
-The kiss you regret most is: hmmmmmmmmmmmmm, Leah Bennet
-Your best kiss: the romantic kind that gives you chills
-Kissing in public is: Im not a big fan of PDA i dont like when i see it and respect others,
-Tongue rings are:GROSSSSSS, however liprings ;)
-Two girls kissing is: two girls kissing,
-Two guys kissing is: two guys kissing,

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 16:31:25 GMT

heres some 'action' pictures of me at the family gathering

theres me glarring at my brother

heres me drinking a delicious beverage

Dizzy

Sat, 09 Jul 2005 18:35:47 GMT

thanks have been pretty sweet right about now

im begianing to think people complain more then they should and over exadreate things, i mean, we dont really have it that bad,

ijust think that you souldnt worry so much, let life leed you, play it by ear, have fun, enjoy dont be sad for what you dont have be happy for what you do, like people to care about you when others dont, thats something worth working for ..i mean, im not say i dont have problems, just

everyone needs to lighten up..

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 15:19:02 GMT

LEts see how well you know me, or more so , how well i know my self.
LAST PERSON WHO...
x. Slept in your bed: me
x. Saw you cry: Emily, although they were eye-drop induced tears
x. Made you cry: i cant remember
x. Spent the night at your house: no one ever spends the night at my house, i hate it
x. You shared a drink with: everyone, im a mooch
x. You went to the movies with: John mauro and jason :)
x. You went to the mall with: Emily to get some cd about gay people.
x. Yelled at you: my mom, like every morning.
x. Told you they loved you: .............hmm

HAVE YOU EVER...
x. Gotten in a fight with your pet: yes, my cat is mean.
x. Been to New York: no
x. Dreamed something really crazy and then it happened the next day: seems so
x. Had an imaginary friend: how much of a loser do you think im am....?

RANDOM
x. Red or blue: red
x. Spring or Fall: spring, fall means that winter is coming, spring = summer
x. Are you bored: at times, when i have no one to talk to
x. Last noise you heard: fans
x. Last time you went out of the country: acouple weeks ago, honduras
x. Things you like in the opposite sex: being able to enjoy life with,
x. Do you have a crush on someone: i dont know ;)
x. What book are you reading now: Diary: a noval, chuck palahniuk
x. Worst feelings in the world: loneliness
x. What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning: i do not want to get up at nine when ever my mom yells "UPPY UPPY" goddammit
x. How many rings before you answer: atleast two, three if i dont know who it is
x. Future daughter's name: hmm, Sam, sam is a hot name,
x. Future son's name: Paige
x. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: i acually cuddle with my pillow :(
x. If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be: umm right now, i would want to still work at cantina, i want to be a chemist when i grow up
x.Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous: righty but i can use my left for some things...
x. Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: yes i do,,,
x. What's under your bed: Monsters
x. Favorite sport:competitive dancing, just kidding, sports are for the birds
x. Siblings: one brother one half brother two stepsisters that arnt related,,, yeah, im confused too.

EXTRA STUFF
x. Do you do drugs: no way jose
x. Do you drink: on occasion
x. What are you most scared of: ...bees
x. What clothes do you sleep in: boxers. shirts and pants strangle me in my sleep.
x. Who is the last person who called you: emily, i believe i left funny messages on her voice mail
x. Where do you want to get married: Los Vegas, just kidding, somewhere beautiful
x. Favorite number(s): 3
x. What type of automobile do you drive: i dont know much about cars...for escort.
x. Are you timely or always late: i try to be on time, just cause i have no life, if theres something oging on i dont car if im late, its the mexican ways
x. Do you have a job: no, i need to get on that though,
x. Do you like being around people: all the time.
x. Best feeling in the world: snuggles
x. Are you a health freak: not really,, accually, no

STUFF
x. Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with:not loved, maybe liked
x. Want someone you don't have right now: depends on what that means
x. Are you lonely right now: kinda,
x. Ever afraid you'll never get married: when i was younger.
x. Do you want to get married: someday,
x.Do you want kids: heck yes i do

IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU...
x. Cried: does fake crying count?
x. Bought something: no, i make all my friends pay for it
x..SAID"I Love You": yes, i love everyone
x. Met someone new: i wish
x. Talked to someone: yes, i would die if i didnt
x. Missed someone: Yeah
x. Hugged someone: yes
x. Fought with your parents: every morning
x. Dream about someone you can't be with: yes, strange as that is
x. Had a lot of sleep: my parents make that impossible

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 04:10:41 GMT

I winona Ryde HER

I just got done watching Girl, interrupted and it was a lovly movie....i always told people it was my favorite as a joke, but it prolly accually up there. REAlly good.

Tue, 05 Jul 2005 21:15:56 GMT

Dont even ask, some jackass homosexual photographer stole my name (even though he had it first)

From to >

now which one is gayier.......

dont worrie, i dont know either

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:45:46 GMT

this one will be just for fun

Your Inner European is French!

Smart and sophisticated.

You have the best of everything - at least, *you* think so.

Who's Your Inner European?

Chuck Palahniuk

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 18:40:45 GMT

I stated reading Diary yesterday, its about a coma diary writting by a guys wife when he slips into a coma after trying to kill himself, its pretty good so far. but i'll see how it turns out, you should read it..

Summer read:
Diary
by Chuck palahniuk

its nice out so i hope to hit the beach eventually

Reflextion on honduras 2005

Sat, 18 Jun 2005 15:11:07 GMT

So much has happened this last week, the people and places and ideas will change mylife forever, i cannot begian to discribe to you the life changing exprences nor if i try will be ever able to...please understand me when i say that the faces and warm welcomes I have experianced in the last 6 days will not be able to be discribed.

Because of my inablility to discribe to you the happenings of June 11th to June 17th i will savior the emotions and not try, for i do not have the words to distribe how completely compelling and amazing these last couple of days has done from me...

just know i will look at life through new eyes, and know that people out there are less fortunate, but they have something we dont...unconditional graditude and happiness.

Thank you this expperiance: Tara, Emily, Rachel, Danielle, Lauren, John, Rhonda, Allan, Elvin, and everyone else,

Maythis be a begianing to something new